Jaded

Bellissima!!!

Isn't this pair of Gucci Shades gorgeous?!! I saw it when i was walking around in suntec with Hui and Cynthia after a heavy lunch @ fish & co... I saw this similar pair in the colour red!!! and since red is my favourite colour, i have to try this pair on... and i look damn good in it! for once, i found a pair of shades that rest on my noes and not my cheekbones... It was on 20% sales thus costing 256 bucks instead of 320 bucks... I want to buy! Someone buy it for me! :p After some thinking(logically), i have decided not to buy it instead. Quoting from a comment made by my dear brother " Its a good-to-have, not a must-have..." I guess he is right, since i wouldn't possibly be wearing it when i am in school... But i wouldn't mind if some kind soul buys it for me! haha

The bali trip that i have mentioned i one of my previous entries, has been cancelled... Long story... But it has been cancelled... I am disappointed but i guess i can always go the next time round... and to make myself forget the disappointment, i have decided to spend half of the money that i have set aside for the trip for shopping!!! :> and i want to buy an ipod mini as well, should i buy the sliver one or the green one??? :>


Ipod mini!!!

Your Extroversion Profile:

Friendliness: Very High

Assertiveness: High

Excitement Seeking: High

Sociability: High

Activity Level: Medium

Cheerfulness: Medium

I just went to e-services on my school website to check out my long awaited results... Disappointing results i must say. Well, at least it is disappointing according to my standard... So here goes...

Clinical Education: B
Anatomy: B
Physiology: B+
Behavioural Science: B
Research Methods: B
Lifespan and Lifestyle Development: B
Occupational Therapy Theory & Process: A

Overall GPA: 3.311

My GPA dropped! My previous GPA was 3.42... This sucks!!! I got a B for my anatomy... I used to be an A student of this module... I know... I am a perfectionist... This results are considered good for some people but definitely not in my standards... Especially with that intense competition within my class... Oh well, there's always next time... So i'll just work harder! Better start revising my first year stuff for my second year that is coming in a month's time... :>

My sleeping routine has been disrupted eversince i started working at Bar & Billard Room... I have been sleeping at wee hours in the morning almost everyday, only waking up in the afternoon. I have been drinking 3 nights in a row... the first night was when i was working at BBR and one of my colleagues tempted me with tequila shots... So i drank 2 shots... The second night was at the pub opposite raffles hotel, i drank 2 vodka sprite, with high amount of vodka and yesterday, i went to alleybar with rachel and some of my colleagues from raffles and i drank a lychee martini and a virgin maargarita...

Although i didn't drink a lot, it is still so unhealthy! I can't stop the late nights... Or should i say early morning but i am definitely not drinking! For as long as i can... I feel super unhealthy... Should really stop what i am doing... :>

Yesterday at work, i got to chance to see the singapore version of the O.C... There was a private function held for the CEO of a certain bank that i cannot mentioned... But it was a birthday party for him and were a lot of guests who are ppl of the high society of singapore. There were ambassadors & CEOs... The music was great and there was a few flow of whatever alcohol the guests want.

People were impeccably dressed, the women looking damn fine and the men looking so hot! Interesting things start to unfold when ppl started drinking... I am not entitled to mention details but if any of you watches the O.C, u would know what i mean... There were "marissa cooper" everywhere, there were "Julie Cooper" everywhere... The thing that i enjoy the most was that there were "Seth Cohen" everywhere... I LOVE MY JOB!

It was a pity that i was on duty because if i wasn't, i would be dancing with a bunch of cuties... A few of them actually came up to me & asked me to dance with them... And all i could do was to smile and say that i can't because i was working... Damn... Biggest regret of the month...

It ended really late and by the time i got to sleep, it was already 4ish in the morning... But it was definitely an interesting experience... :>

Chocolate Fondue with Fruits @ Coffee Club Express...

Doesn't the setting make it looks like the 70s... 

Chocolate coated strawberry... Yumm... 

Another good friend of mine, Salma... She doesn't like taking photos... 

This is my best friend, Rachel!  

Outside BBR! the place i am working @! 

@ coffee club express  

Rach & I are too engross in eating the chocolate fondue... 

A lot of things happened in these past few days that has spurred a lot of thoughts... One things that shocked me today was getting the news from glen about a person's death... He committed suicide this morning and was found by his parents at the foot of his flat... He is just a person who i know but it still shook me quite a bit... What would have driven a person to take his own life? I believe it takes a lot of courage for one to take their own life... Its either that or it is just a call of desperation... Life is really too short and too precious to end it just like that... One should just take whatever that comes their way, regardless of whether it is good or bad...

Just had a really interesting conversation with glen on the phone... Had to type this down before i lose my train of thought...

These are my confessions.
I just realized that i am a person with a lot of flaws... How ironic is it when i spend most of my time trying to be as perfect as i can be... I am a perfectionist to the point that it drives myself insane, i believe it drives my friends insane as well... I am so ambitious to the point that it scares people away... I am so independent to the point where i think it make others think that i do not need them...Yes... I am self-centred... After such a long time, i realized that i am self-centred... It has always been about me. I barely think about others... I have always been planning about my future that i forget the fact that the things that make up my future is not just myself, or my future career but my friends and my family... They are the people that makes my future a future to look forward to, they are the ones that matters... I finally have the guts to admit that i am afraid of a lot of things... I am a person with plenty of flaws... And i am proud of it... Everybody has flaws and i am not the only one, so there is nothing wrong with it. :>

And hence the title for my entry... I will improve myself! I will make a conscious effort to not be self-centred... I will learn to take life easy and stop being so uptight about things... I am going to be less independent, i.e. i am going to relax and not try to do everything on my own... I am for once, going to be dependent on people! On appropriate situations of course but i am going to be dependent, in a good way!

i have to thank glen for being so honest with me... :> Not a lot of people are... Except for 2 of my best friends & a few other friends. I guess they are afraid of pissing me off... haha. And glen, thanks for that offer... But i hope you and i will never have the chance to take that up... :> It did made me feel a little pathetic but it was sweet of you to offer (kinda self-sacrificial) but nonetheless sweet... :p oh!& feel free to remind me if i am back to my old self again... You are afterall the one of the rare few who "inspired" me to change for the better. :> ( i bet your ego is getting really big right now... :p)

This is going to be a long process and i hope that i succeed in improving myself. :>

I was really ticked off, no, the more appropriate word is pissed off by the hostess of the place i was working in... Bloody bitch... Yesterday was quite a relaxing day @ work since there was not much reservations for dinner by the guests... I was stationed @ the tables that are right around the entrance and while our hostess is bring a group of guests to their table, another group came in and since they look expectantly @ me, i have no choice but to go up to them and ask them about their reservations... Guess wat, our dear little hostess came back and pushed me aside to talk to the guest... I was fine with that, just a little ticked off by her attitude. What really pissed me off was when she pulled me aside with her vice-grip on my arm and said this to me "My job is to check the guests' reservation and bring them to their tables, your job is just to serve, so don't overstep your boundaries." All along with her hand gripping hard on my arm, as in, she is threatening me... I nearly laughed out loud... I mean, she doesn't look threatening at all... She is short! and by short i mean her head is @ my shoulder level...She is ugly and fat and with a hairstyle that is fit for a kid and not an old woman like her! Stupid bitch... After which, she kept on picking on me, how i serve the drinks, how i serve the guests... through out the whole night, there is just 2 words i want to say to her... "FUCK OFF!!!"

Yes, i am really pissed off... I think this is probably the most "pissed off" entry by far... And apparently, i am not the only who thinks she is a short, fugly bitch... So, i wasn't being judgmental... (cheeky smile)

Oh well, i am sure there are more entries of "interesting happenings" from work to come... So continue to read!

I didn't know having a tagboard could be so fun!!! Anyway, thank you for everyone's concern... I am feeling fine! Work has been hectic but fun nonetheless, especially when i have my darling best friend, rachel working with me. Its been interesting so far, serving fancy cocktails, canapes, expensive wines and cigars... Using terms such as certainly, my pleasure... Life certainly have been fun... :>

The negative side to this job is that sleeping @ 3 plus in the morning everyday doesn't do good to my skin... But then again, i don't want to work in the morning shift, it seems somewhat less interesting...

remember the chef that i mentioned earlier in my previous entry, the one with the bloody pervertic stare, finally shut him up yesterday... At least for now... There i was standing at my station, scanning around the hall to see if any guest requries any assistance and that bloody idiot came along and constantly asking me stupid questions... "Are u chinese?" " You don't look like one?" "How old are u?" I mean what's up with that?! Is he doing a demographic survey? Plus that pervertic stare of his wasn't doing any good in easing my anger... So i turn around and told him straight in the face, " STOP TALKING TO ME!!!" and i walked away... Morons...

I seriously do not know whats up some of the male stuff members there... Are they really that deprived to the extent that they have to constantly prey on female stuff member, especially new ones? I constantly get comments like, "how old are u?" " I think you are very pretty.", " Do u want to go out with me?", " Do u have a boyfriend?", " i think u are truly a wonderful worker..." which is followed by "are u free tmr?" Honestly, i just came here to work!!! So just let me do my job!!! At first i thought they were just being nice but when they started doing that everyday, i started to question their sincerity...

There are other staff members who help me fend off these ppl and one of them is my darling rachel!!! Don't know what i would do without her... Rachel, Tan and i are planning to go on a holiday before work and sch starts... Our common favourite destination is BALI! So if everything goes well, we should be going to bali for our vacation! Can't Wait!!!

Had the worse case of sore throat yesterday... It will so infected to the point where there is this constant stinging pain in my throat without me eliciting any laryngeal movement... Naturally, i wouldn't feel like eating thus resulting in the decrease in my blood pressure... I felt shitty the whole day with the sore throat and the effects of the antibiotics that the doctor has given me. It made me queasy for the whole day...

The worse thing is, i had to go to work from 5pm to 1am... So i braced myself, thinking that i will be okay but no... When i got there, i was still feeling a little weak but i thought if i keep doing things to occupy myself, things will me fine. This is where the drama comes in... I had a black out when we were doing role call... One moment i was standing, the next moment i was seating in a chair with everyone around me with the worried look plastered on their face. Honestly speaking, i have no idea why i had a blackout, most probably due to my low blood pressure... Although i have to thank my colleagues and my managers at the hotel for their concerns... They took really good care of me... What a great impression i left... Most probably, i am going to me known as the" girl who fainted" for a while...

First day of work was really interesting... although it has caused me to have aches all over my shoulder and arms... I had to served cocktails at a private function for the first 2 hours thus resulting in muscle aches specifically @ my biceps... Carrying a tray full of drinks in the 'correct' manner is really not easy. So next time if any of u are at a party and you see ppl serving cocktails on a tray, be nice to them. :>

The ppl who i had worked with on that day were really nice although there is this particular junior chef who seriously is getting on my nerves... The proper word to describe how he treats the female staff is HARASSMENT! You can see him giving the pervertic stare at the female staffs... Disgusting!!! Gives me the urge to want to smack the hell out him...

Overall, it was a pleasant experience... The ppl i get to meet while working there are mostly influential ppl in the working society. Having the chance to observe them and interact with them are pretty fun, so no complains there! Will be working from mon to fri, except wed and on sunday as well for the next week. Wouldn't be posting as much since i will be reaching home @ around 3 am everyday... Cheers ppl!

yesh... I got a job, well, actually its a part time job at raffles hotel. Since i have a really long period of hols, might as well do something useful and earn some cash... Just came back from an interview at raffles hotel and i got a part time job as a server in their Bar and Billard Room! The environment is really nice and the staff members that i have met there are pretty nice too... On the surface, they are pretty friendly... I'll just have to observe and re-evaluate after i start working there. Best of all, i get to work with one of my best friend, rachel... She was the one who introduced me to this job. :> thanks girl!

Will update again on the job after i start work on thursday. I am working in the night shift. 5 to 1am. Till then...

I need to find some excitement in my life, something to make me feel alive again... I know this sounds contradicting to me previous entries but this reflects how i feel right now... I have nothing to do... Nothing... The transition from the hectic 16 weeks of sch to two & a half month of nothing to do is too drastic... My organiser is blank... Its been a long time since i had the chance of not having anything planned and lined up for my following weeks to come. I guess i just need time to adjust to this...

Just received an email from my ex-lecturer yesterday. She is "backpacking" round the whole of Europe and US for the next 3 mths or so. She was in Russia when she sent us her first email eversince she left but now she is in london going towards Prague... I wish i can be like her, travelling round the world, soaking myself in the culture of other countries... Enjoying fresh, non-polluted mountain air... Feeling the cool breeze across my face... Instead of feeling warm and stuffy while typing this entry...

I feel so stuck right now... I want to get away...

I went out with hui & cynthia yesterday!!! We meet up in orchard and headed straight to paragon for some high-end shopping. Hui was so pleased when we went to boutiques such as Mui Mui, Versace, Versus and of course BCBG! She was so excited when she saw Jessica Stam (her favourite model!) as the cover girl of their new seasons fashion spread. We saw this really cute pair of jelly sandals at Versace and since we expected the price to be outrageous, we were kinda shock when the price of the gorgeous jelly sandals was 180 odd bucks! Anyway, i tried on this really nice top at Guess and as usual, i feel totally in love with it. I would have buy it if i haven't spent 150 bucks on Kylie's Concert in June... But then again, there would be a high chance of me succumbing to temptation in a week or so... We'll see.

It was nice to bump into lionel while we were in borders! I have not seen him for quite a while... He was with his girlfriend, Kelly! They so adorable standing beside one another. Lionel my friend, you are a lucky guy! I was glad that i spent my weekend with my gals... Its been a while since i felt so relax and so at ease with just being me... Thanks girls!!! I am looking forward to our trip to the beach! :>