Jaded

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Weary

I should be happy... I should be celebrating since its my last week of placement and i'm one step away from graduation and independence. But i'm not happy at all... There's just so many things happening around me that is inducing depression and wearing me out. My grandmother's recent passing, my parents incessant, nonsensical argument, my family breaking apart... I'm so sick and tired of all these... I'm so sick and tired of trying to mend, trying to piece these things together. I'm sick and tired of being calm and composed, maintaining rationale thoughts. I'm sick of being caught in the middle and being forced to choose. Why can't things just go back to the way it was? Weren't we happy? Why can't everyone just get pass these little things and move on? Why am i the only one who is making all these desperate attempts to hold this family together?

Maybe i shouldn't try anymore, make all these feeble attempts when no one really cares... Maybe its time to give up and go our seperate ways...

link it to the world

link it to yourself

stretch it like a birth squeeze

the love for what you hide

for bitterness inside

is growing like the new born

when you've seen, seen too much

too young, young

soulless is everywhere

hopeless time to roam

the distance to your home

fades away to nowhere

how much are you worth?

you can't come down to earth

you're swelling up

you're unstoppable cos you've seen

seen too much

and too young young

show me it's real wasting

our last chance to come away

just break a silence

cause i'm drifting away away from you

Muse

- Newborn-

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I Cuddle

Quote: " I'm so bloody nice"Must be the kids that i'm with day in day out. They are the cutest things in the world! I want to bring them home! :)

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Lunching alone

Today was the first time i had lunch alone in orchard. It's pretty refreshing i must say although people were giving my weird looks while i was having a yummy rice bowl at Yoshinoya while reading one of the two newly purchased book, One More Day by Mitch Albom, the other book is Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder. I believe everyone should have lunch on their own once in a while... There's no need to strike up a conversation, no need to rush while eating ur food. Just me and my book, at my own pace, in my own time.

Had a huge argument with my mum yet again but this time, it is blown way out of proportion. Topics involved in the arguments are too long to explain but coincidently, one of the sentences in the book that i was reading sums it up.
It goes: (in the book it was boy, since the main character is a guy. I adapted it to my situation)

"Am i a mummy's girl or a daddy's girl?"

Does it matter? And why should i be made to choose?

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Monday, April 02, 2007

Student Conference Mania

It took me forever to find the time to blog about my student conference held two saturdays ago. It didn't went fantastically well for my team since the presentation slides somehow got screwed up and we had to stop and re-present our research paper again. Everyone was upset but what is done cannot be undone and i would say my team dealed with it admirably. Alll was forgotten when the conference ended and crazy photo-taking sessions took place. Although it was not graduation, it somehow felt like it was. We've finally presented our 'baby' after all the hardwork, late nights, sweat and tears we put into our research paper. Took tons of crazy photos before, during and after the conference.

Here they are...

My Best Buddies in School

After the conference, everyone went home and had a brief period of rest before meeting up for dinner again at Funan IT Mall. And naturally i was 'fashionably late' since i overslept my 'cat nap'. Dinner was followed by a drinking and photo-taking session at The Ink Bar, Swisshotel with some of the ladies... Tons of photo-taking again, you can imagine what the pictures are like considering how 'high' we were.