Jaded

It been a month since school started... It's somewhat petrifying how time flies. Leading the same routine everyday. School, Home, Work, Sleep... Been doing that every single day. My friends are starting to say that i've no life. Come to think of it, it is quite true. But i do enjoy what i am doing, in fact, i love what i'm doing. Why are we humans always contradicting ourselves? Maybe its because we're never satisfied with what we have, resulting in a so called "miserable" life...

He's been gone for about 2 weeks and strange enough, i didn't think of him as much as i thought i would... It could be due to my busy schedule with school curriculum and dance. My friends are asking me, what are you going to do about "it"? Honestly speaking, i've no idea. In fact, i don't want to think about it now because there's no point in it. There are a string of possibilities or scenarios that can happen and i wouldn't noe of it until he's back. I do question myself constantly... did we had anything at all to start off with?

The dance concert is finally over!!! Both shows on fri and sat were great! The comments that the alumni received were really good. :> Had full-dress rehearsals on thurs before the concert on fri and sat! I made a lot of mistakes... Dropped steps, missed counts and blockings... I was so stressed out to the point where i felt like crying.

On the first day of concert day itself, things went really well. :> All of the alumni were nervous yet so very excited. The adrenaline was pumping so hard on fri and sat... All of us screaming and jumping around like mad women, cheering on our juniors at the wings of the stage. When it was our turn to go up on stage, all of us were so jittery... But it all turned out well, it always did. I was telling the girls that after doing this for 4 years, i still feel the adrenaline, and the nerve wrecking sensation... But then again, the day i stop getting all this emotions, is the day i stop dancing. :> I hope that will never happen!!!

Now that the concert is over, i finally have the time to start on my sch work... :> Been neglecting it for quite some now. Its time i get back on track. Can't wait for the dinner & get-together @ dewi's place! It will be a blast!

After the Show! 

Argh!!! 

Geeky Shot! 

Hui's Item! 

My Pretty Girls... 

CoVer Shot! 

Before the show... 

Gothic Girls! 

Group Shot!!! 

Things have been extremely hectic for the past 2 weeks... Sch, dance, sch again followed by dance again... i've been thinking a lot lately, constantly trying to process the events that have been going on with my life and they are just so bloody conflicting. One moment i'm happy, the next moment i feel sad and frustrated... I don't even know what to do now... I can't complain about it because i'm not the only one experiencing it, i can't talk about certain things with my friends... In fact, there are just some things that i can't talk to anyone about...For once, i just wish that i can be selfish and be entitled to expose all the emotions i'm experiencing right now... I don't want to care about what the f*#k other ppl say.

Haven't had proper sleep for the past 2 weeks, suppressing all these emotions that i'm feeling... I am interested to see what i will be like when i finally breakdown, when i finally burst out... I bet it will be one hell of a show...

Bumming around in school during breaks is damn boring... So i've decided to bum around in the computer labs instead. At least i could do some "constructive" stuff like check my mails and read my friends' blogs. Second week of school just started, nothing much for the first day, same old, same old. We did stain glass painting today in our Human Occupations Class. At least it is something that i enjoy, since i like to do art craft such as sketching and painting. If only all the classes was like this, more practical and no theory involved (my wishful thoughts...).

2 more weeks to the dance concert, i'm freaking out, i know the other dancers(especially the choreographers) are freaking out too... To be honest, having school in the day and dance rehearsals @ night everyday for the past 6 days and the next 1 & a half week is draining me out. But then again, i'm not the only one... Keeping my fingers crossed that we can put up a good show and not disappoint anyone. :>

Of course it sucks to have a f*#king busy schedule... No time for my family (my mum is starting to think that i treat my home as a hotel), no time for my friends, no time for him... Even he is complaining(well, not really) or stating the fact to me that the last time he saw me in person was like 1 & a half weeks ago. I'm not even working yet and i am already such a workaholic. It's no one's fault that both of us have suck a f*#king hectic schedule... Just have to make the best out of what we have. Worse thing is, he's taking a 3 weeks off from work to go back home... 3 bloody long weeks... Although he truly deserve this long break from work, since he's been so overworked for god knows how long. And it definitely will do him good, being able to see his family again after such a long time. Hopefully, school's curriculum will be hectic enough to keep me from having wandering thoughts...

First of all, many many many thanks to all my friends for the gifts, the best wishes and most importantly the thoughts! i actually had rehearsals till 12 midnight on fri night, so technically speaking it was my birthday already... Received tons of text messages from my friends, wishing me a happy birthday... :> Had a pretty eventful birthday, with rehearsals from 10 to 3plus 4 in the late afternoon... Was damn shagged after that so i had to share a cab with my junior, jieyen (pardon me if the spelling is wrong), back home. Nearly dropped dead on the spot but of course my stomach comes before my sleep so i had a nice enough late lunch cooked by my mum before i took a damn long shower and went to sleep.

Woke up @ around 7 and went on the doll myself up before meeting Tess in town for dinner. That girl is one of the sweetest and most thoughtful girls that i've ever met. Although she was still feeling sick, she came all the way down to town and met me for dinner. So after having difficulty trying to find one another when we were in town( similar to what happened the previous time we met), we went to Gusto @ Wisma for dinner, with the gorgeous flowers that she gave me. She refused to let me pay for the check... So next time we go out, it will be on me! :>


Flowers from Tess!!!

We walked around for a little while before i sent her off to the bus stop, she had to go home since she wasn't feeling well. Wandered around alone after Tess left since i was waiting for Rachel to get off work from The Canteen by Les amie... Her assistant manager was nice enough to show me around the restaurant while Rachel was getting ready. :>

Met phoebe and her bf (pretty interesting character) and nic @ the entrance of devil's bar... Then we went off to clarke quay before waiting a damn long time for others to come... Overall clubbing experience was alright, nothing fantastic really but i had fun with my friends. Especially my best friends! I LOVE U TWO TO BITS!!! Of course, spending some time with him... :> Went for "supper" or should i say "breakfast" with them @ around 6 am in the morning, since all of us were starving... Reached home @ around 7 plus, took a shower, brush my teeth and went on to bed before waking up @ 1plus today... My beloved family are so sweet! they bought me a cake and celebrated my birthday with me right after i woke up and brushed my teeth! :> Of course, it will be followed by a fabulous dinner later in the evening... :>


My best gal pals!!! :>


My birthday cake!!! :> 

I feel so loved!!! And i'm damn grateful that i have my family, my friends, all my loved ones with me... So thank you ppl!!! :> Turning 20 isn't so bad after all...

Time really flies... First week of school is pretty much over. I've to say, moving on to the second year of studies has been somewhat refreshing. Almost all the modules i'm taking are a new set of coursework and the classes have been very enlightening. I noe, I AM A NERD! i love learning new things but it has been fun! :> especially for the lab sessions. Everyone in the class was having a good laugh when we attempt to do transferring and palpation on one another.

I am rather contented with what i've now... I love what i am studying, i've fantastic friends (new & the "old"), a loving family (although they can get on my nerves once in a while), i've the chance to keep on dancing ,and meeting him... It's overwhelming at times but i am trying my best! :>

The "Wise & Old { i'm turning 20 tmr... :-( } me" is going to end of with a quote from a book i've read...

"DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED..."

Cheers!

First day of school was horrible!!!

Okay... it wasn't that horrible. Just that the time table sucks... We are spilt into 3 groups, A,B & C. I am assigned to group C and we have the suckiest timetable! We start the earliest, we end our classes the latest... Projects, assignments & reports are already placed in our hand. I can see myself not having enough time for myself, my family, friends... Basket... :(

I am just keeping my fingers crossed and pray hard that i can survive the next 3 weeks. School in the day, dance rehearsal @ night... I woudn't be surprise if i looked like a "living dead" for the next couple of weeks...

On the other hand, i can't wait for this saturday! I am going to have so much fun! :> Will update as much as i can. Till then...

Went back to my alma mata, Juying Sec Sch... It was nice to see all my classmates and teachers again! Being back in school brought back lots of fond memories and believe it or not, i missed those good old days... I can't believe it has been 4 years since i graduate... I feel old when i saw all my juniors in school. The food sucked... But the company was great! :> Everybody was different in their own ways. I guess all of us have really grown, and that is always a good thing.

Side note, if u ppl have noticed... I look a little different... I finally got the guts to straighten my hair. Not used to the new look but i have heard good comments so far, so no complains! :> Cheers



End of the day...

Mr Lim! Our mathematics teacher back in the old days... 

Just the three of us... 

I hope i didn't break Tan's leg... :p 

Spot where the teacher is? 

Best Pals... 

My ex-classmates!!! 

see the contrast? 

Huijuan is clearly distracted... 

Huijuan and Tan! I have no idea who is huijuan looking @ 

I have been whining to my friends about the fact that i have officially gotten my licence for about 3 weeks now and i've yet to drive my dad's car... After relentless whining and persuading, my dad decided to let me drive his brand new SUV! (with his supervision of course...)

I droved from Boon Lay, around the industrial areas, continued along KJE to CCK then back to jurong where my dad needed to top up his fuel. After which we drove to Jurong point for dinner @ crystal jade... :> According to my dad, i am not a bad driver! considering the fact that today was the very first time i got the chance to drive a SUV... It wasn't that difficult to drive but i do wish my dad had gotten a car that is incline to the petite side... Oh well, I will definitely be able to drive it alone once i get use to it! :>

On the side note, school is just 2 days away... For the first time in a long time, I WISH SCHOOL WILL NEVER START! i am having way to much fun! Sobb...