Jaded

I was totally shocked when i heard about the hit of tsunami on the various countries... The pictures showing the dead bodies especially of those children, it just breaks my heart... I wish there was something i could do to help but right now the only thing i can think of is monetary assistance.

I am glad that none of my friends or relatives were in those areas at that point of time but looking at the rising death counts makes me realize how fragile life is... no matter how advanced our technology is and how much knowledge we acquire and how much discoveries we make, we are still under the mercy of mother nature...

Its gonna take a while to repair these damages... and those victims involved in this disaster are all in my prayers...

Christmas dinner at Shahi Maharani north indian restaurant.

Christmas was great!!! On the eve, i went out with my best friends, rachel and huiting... We went to the restaurant that serves delicious north indian cuisine. The ambience of the restaurant was fantastic, all warm and fuzzy... The dinner did cost a bomb but it was worth it. Me and my girls went straight to orchard after dinner and boy, did we regret it... People were spraying cans of "snow" at everybody, my face got a huge blob of it... Gross... But it was all out of good fun, so i forgive whoever that sprayed the icky snowy stuff on my face.

I never knew that there were so many people in S'pore... and looking at those kids who seems to be having lots of fun with those spray cans, i suddenly felt that i was too old for this... i noe i am just 19 but those things that these kids do were just not for me. It's like i have outgrown all of it. Maybe i have grown up... :>

Went to meet up with junwen, glen, micheal, CK and jaime at pacific plaza, these guys were goin to chinablack to club but me and my girlfriends decided not to... Junwen lost his 5oo bucks digital camera and is pretty upset abt it... oh well, christmas is a season of "giving" so whoever that found the camera that was left on the bus by him is a lucky one...

I just realize that i have spent a lot of money during my hols... I don't that came as a suprise since i am a shopaholic... Sch will be starting real sooon... and of course, i will be back to my mugging mode... oh well, better enjoy the rest of the hols before sch starts...

I just saw my timetable for my 2nd semester next year... and ppl... it is not good... You guys are not goin to c much of me next year... Most of the days i start classes at 8 in the morning and end at 6/7pm at night... Next year is goin to be horrible, long hours of classes, minimal no. of breaks and plus, i have my attachment in the hospital... I have no idea how i am suppose to cope with all that and the 3 CCAs that i have.

I am just praying hard that i have more e-learning lessons, its kinda like a self taught lesson, so i can have more free time to do other work... I noe i am not suppose to complain... I love wat i am doin now but yet i can't stop feeling depressed, knowing that i am not goin to have time for my friends, family and even myself... plus, the practices for my JC's dance concert will start next year as well... I have no idea how i am suppose to go for that with my timetable like this...

I just hope that i can manage my time well for everything that i have to complete...

My dear brother is really unfortunate enough to have his housemates when he was in australia... you see, they are supposed to get back a their bond from landlord but due to his disgusting housemates who left shit all over toilet( literally), the cleaning process was slowed down... I would rather not show you guys the picture, it is gross... Sometimes i wonder if that is really just pure bad luck or wat... I told him to let his friends(housemates) pay for the cleaning services... I do not noe if he will do that or not, maybe he is just too nice...

Come to think of it, i am rather lucky throughout 19 years of my life... Yes, there are times when i am just purely unlucky but it seems that something is out there that will push me back to the right direction in my life whenever i stray... I should be thankful for that i suppose. As compared to me, my brother has been "unlucky" most of the time... Meeting crappy friends, losing something, not getting what he want and blah blah blah. Is it all just luck or is there something more to it?

How do u bring urself to be mean to others? Is there a time when u have to be mean to others, just to stop them from doin real silly things? I have got a lot of questions in my mind... Can anyone answer it for me?...

I haven spent my saturday like yest for a long time... Went out with glen in the afternoon to do some shopping in town for christmas presents for our friends & instead we end up buying presents for ourselves... haha. We went to far east plaza to walk around and end up watching this hip hop dance competition. The first 2 teams were alright... but the third team was HOT!! The way they dance makes me feel like dancing... Its like my whole body is itching to move... I haven't properly dance for quite some time now and so i can't wait for our dance practices for the SA dance concert to start soon.

In the evening, i went to my dear friend Hui's place for a wonderful get-together dinner with some friends, lionel, cynthia, koustav, jason, andrea, clarisse, nolan, alicia and bf... I didn't realize how much i missed my friends until yesterday... We have been so busy with our studies that we haven't had time for one another and gathering like this is simply wonderful... The food was great, we had chicken, pasta, ham, my favourite potato salad, fried finger food and of course for desserts we had hui's famous blueberry pie and delectable chocolate fudge cake... my stomach was filled to the brim and that feeling was wonderful... hhaha

After dinner, we had fun with the sims 2 and hui introduced us to all her families in her "topmodelville" and we watched the taped episodes of america's next top model! I haven had so much fun with my friends for such a long time and it is good to rekindle that feeling again...

Isn't she gorgeous?
I haven been out all week... all i did was just to go to the driving centre to for my driving lesson. I finally went out to the roads yesterday for my lesson. Strange enough, i feel more at ease driving in the open roads then in the circuit itself... It could be because the roads are wider and i don't have to worry abt some other learners stopping suddenly. Here i thought i was bad at driving, i saw a woman driving the car up the curb( the whole car went up the curb)... My instructor actually burst out and laugh... wat a sadist.

Anyway, i was watching america's next top model on monday night and i just realize how gorgeous these women are in the foreign countries and how impt outward appearance is... But i think it is difficult to be a woman in these countries since image to them is very impt... More and more women are going under the knife... and i don't mean those women aged above 30 or 40, i have heard from friends that their friends who are around my age i.e still a teenager goin to be a young adult who goes for cosmetic surgery to fixed wat them deemed as flaws on their face and body... it makes me wonder if one day any of my friends or even myself would do the same... I sure hope not because it is the differences that makes one unique.. :>

My weekend was horrible... My parents "persuaded" my brother and i to go for this trip to one of the islands in indonesia with them and some other family friends... and because of that i missed the ballet performance in esplanade by SDT which i have been eagerly anticipating... The trip was boring, ridiculous and complete waste of my time.

And the ferry ride back was even worse... The waves were huge and the ferry ride felt like a viking ride for 2 freakin hours... I almost puked out my lunch during the ride home... So when we reached home, i told my parents that i will never, ever go on another trip with them that involves us goin into any south east asia countries...

I still feel a little sick while doin this new posting...

Went out with some of my friends from sch yest... At first i was rather hesitant about joining them for the activity that they have planned... They were goin to K-box... if any of u do not noe wat that is, its kinda a karaoke place... for the youngsters... I refused to sing when i went there but soon realise that my friends aren't gonna judge me if i can't sing really well... so i went ahead and took the mike...

I did warn my friends, telling them that i can't really sing but they were okay with it... Its weird hearing ur own voice and i didn't noe my voice is that high... It kinda goup me out... We were there for about 5 hours, just enjoying each others' company and singing our hearts out! After which was followed by a wonderful dinner at NYDC right outside The Heerens.

I wouldn't mind goin to K-box again, those who haven't try it should!! its a good enough experience... :)