Jaded

I've wasted my weekend sleeping away due to all the medication that the docter have given me. The flu tablets caused drowsiness, so does the double concentration cough syrup... I was reduced to a walking zombie after taking the medication... Tried to complete my work using the computer but ended up not doing anything after seeing two LCD screens instead of one while i was typing my report. The keys on the keyboard seems to be floating as well. Yes... that was how strong the medication was.

Didn't go for NUS DE tech class and fangqi's rehearsals since i could barely get out of my bed. I'm in so much trouble... Gonna have a lot to catch up before going for the next rehearsal. But i did go for Bryan's and Fangqi's rehearsal on saturday. I love both items although i'm worrying if i could dance to their standards. I'll try nonetheless especially since improving in my dance techniques and stage presence are my resolutions this year. :> Performance is going to be on 15th and 16th of Feb @ LT13 in NUS. Can't wait!

CNY is coming!!! hahahaha. Imagine all the cookies and ba kua i can eat. Yummy... Plus all the hongbaos i'm gonna get! CNY is definitely one of my favourite holidays! :>

It has been a really sucky week... Everything just refuse to go my way and the weather just makes my already dampened spirit worse. I've so many things to complete, 2 presentations next week one after another, meeting minutes to type, my heels got stuck in the drain while it was pouring, i nearly fell backwards into a puddle of dirt water when i was trying to pull my heels out, experiencing a couple of periods of gastric pain in a week, the list goes on... All i could do was just to keep on telling myself that things can't get any worse but apparantly, they can.

My dream of going to a rock concert for the first time is dashed as well. I was so looking forward to the Frand Ferdinand concert on the 16th next month but now i can't go since NUS Evo'06 performance falls on that day itself. So i've decided to give up my rock concert and perform in Evo'06. I've always admired the dancers of DE (dance ensemble), watched their concert nearly every year and have always hoped to be part of them and now i am. Having the opportunity to perform as an official member of NUS DE this year is kinda "a dream come true", so no rock concert is going to take my passion for dance away!

Ever since i've joined the course of Occupational Therapy, i've been increasingly moody and my temper has been fluctuating as well. In the past, when i'm pissed off at something or someone, i'll let them have it, but now, after being constantly taught of "putting urself in other ppl's shoes" ideology, i can't do what i do before. I can't even not feel guilty when i'm pissed off at someone/something or when i show them "attitude".
WHAT IS UP WITH THIS WHOLE DEAL OF GUILT & CONSCIOUS?!
I thought getting a better insight of self and others makes you a better person. In my case, i feel like i'm not myself anymore. I'm no longer the girl who has the "I don't give a shit about what people think of me or what i think of them" attitude. I've to be so put together everytime, no tantrums, no temper, no attitude, just calm... It's this what you call 'growing up' and being an 'adult'? Because if it is, i'm so not looking forward to it...

I've managed to survive my first week of sch. Timetable for this semester is pretty good, compared to last semester but don't get too excited for me because on the first day of school, i already have a pile of work to complete. Not to mentioned the constant trepidation of the upcoming CRD (Clinical Reasoning Discussion) next week and the 4 weeks attachment in late Feb. Let's just hope that i don't get slaughtered this sem.

Met up with the guys and gals from SAJC Dance Alumni on friday... We have grown in numbers. This year's concert is gonna be so exciting, its a shame that i wouldn't be able to join them in performance this year... @ Esplanade! As much as i want to, i'll be crazy to join them this year, since my schedule is way too pack for me. Nonetheless, i'll be joining hui as wardrobe mistress... I still want to be part of it, even though i can't perform with them on stage... Sobb...

Heads up everyone!!!
Next wed, 11/01/06 is the very FIRST OT DAY in s'pore! Finally we get to have a day in 365 days to commemorate my profession! :>

For those who still don't know what i do, here's a brief description of my profession.

Was trying to pack my wardrobe yesterday, ended up with a wardrobe that looked ransacked... Well, at least i've tried. :p I've found out that there are so many new additions to my wardrobe compared to a couple of months ago. These includes bags and shoes as well.

So here's a list of my new additions:
1) A skirt from warehouse (compliments of Phoebe)
2) A pair of shorts (I bought it yesterday... it was on 50% sales!)
3) A damn nice T-shirt from Topshop
4) A Jacket (from Japan)
5) A white long sleeve top (from Japan)
6) A belt (compliments of Glen)
7) A one-piece-only Sisley bag
8) A GAP bag (from Japan)
9) An Anna Sui bag (from Japan)
10) A nice pair of pumps
11) A GORGEOUS pair of peep toe heels from Aldo (compliments of Rachel)
12) A damn nice pair of calf-high sneakers (I bought it yesterday as well...)

All these in the span of 2 months... I NEED to stop shopping! OMG, i haven't been saving any money at all... What is wrong with me?! No sense of self-control at all. But i still have so many things to buy! And CNY is approaching! How?!? I think i'll have to take the extreme measure and get my mum to keep part of my allowance from me... Sobb... Incorrigible habit.

An new addition to my '2006 new year resolution.
1) NO MORE SHOPPING UNLESS NECESSARY.

I'm determine to keep this new year resolution...