Jaded

There's been quite a bit of positive changes in my life for the past 5 months... I started work which is going really well; i've fantastic colleagues who are so experienced in the clinical field, plus they are such great mentors and have been so willing in facilitating my learning at work. I've finally signed up for my french lessons @ alliance which is starting tomorrow and i'm psyched about it. I've bought a new bed for myself and managed to re-organised my war-zone looking room into a room that's more decent for living within 4 hours.

But...

I've come to a point in my life where everything is going so well but everything feels so wrong... That empty, voided feeling that i get everytime things start slowing down at the end of the day and i'm not occupied by work or classes or hanging out with my buddies. It came to the point where i don't want to talk or eat or do anything... With all of these events going on in my life that are genuinely positive, something is missing and i've no idea what it is...

Apparently, i look like them. Cool!

Phoebe has been nagging at me to update my blog for the past few weeks and I've finally found the time and the motivation to update and change layout of my blog. Took me quite some time so i think i'm going to stick to this layout for sometime. Theme is kinda dark and twisty... just the way i like it.

Jumping way off topic... There's been a lack of inspiration when it came to dance and i found myself constantly thinking, 'do i still want to dance?' Not that i'm getting sick of it... I simply have no motivation to dance at all. But watching this video gave me tingles down my spine everytime i watch it (& i've watched it for more than 5 times now). Song choice is a bit icky (Britney 'i'm so screwed up' Spears' Gimme More) but the choreography and performance is insanely good! It's by Black McGrath from so you think you can dance & dancelife. He's damn hot when he dance. ;p Enjoy!

It's been a while since i've last blogged... not certain if its because of my crazy schedule between full-time work and TNW'07 rehearsals or if its because my life is so monotonous and routined now that there's nothing to blog about... Some people survives on routine, i guess i'm one of them now.

Haven't got the time to blog about my wereabouts... A lot of things happened i suppose. My 22nd birthday celebration @ Les Amis, Mini gathering @ Hui's, shopping trips and prezzies from my mum from her trip to Hokkaido... Usual things @ work... Fixed period of time at a fixed place. I guess i don't have that much of a flexible schedule as compared to during school time. On a brighter note, i'm starting to get a hang of things @ work, much more adept at dealing with the kids especially when they start to act up or are displaying problem behaviours.

Had a few episodes of lower back pain recently, so i decided to check it out and see what the root of the problem is. I went to the polyclinic to have a general orthopedic checkup and found out that i've small bone-spurs on my lumbar vertebrae (lower back)... That pretty much means that i've an aging spine at the age of 22 when this process usually starts when one is 30/35 years old. Bleah... I've an eight year headstart to getting arthritis and the possibility of spinal stenosis as compared to the rest of the people... Isn't that great... The thing that sucks the most is that i've to cut down on dance, perhaps even stop dancing for a while to slow down the process and prevent it from getting worse. Doctor suggested going for yoga classes to stretch and strengthen my back... Any recommendations for good yoga classes that i can go to ???

Aging jessica...

I'm feeling dead tired although i can't really figure out why since i've not been seeing as much kids as i would... But this week has been rather enjoyable.

Thursday
Dinner @ Garibaldi Italian Restaurant with Rachel which cost me 130 bucks. Food was excellent, service was excellent as well!

Today
Graduation Dinner @ Maritime Building or somewhere in the building. Food was alright but company was great! Finally had the chance to meet up with my classmates and get ahold of what each other are doing... Its really great to see that most of us have found jobs and the rest are heading over to different parts of Aussie and UK for their degree next week! Gosh, i feel excited for them when they were talking about their plans... As for me, maybe 3 years down the road i might pick up my books again and study full time!

And of course, the highlight of the day was:

My very first PAYCHECK as a full-fledged working adult! I'm gonna start saving up for my vacation at the end of the year and for my future studies! But i may just get a little birthday present for myself since i'm turning 22 in one and a half weeks time... Yikes, i'm really getting older...