Jaded

This entry is an extensive elaboration in relations to my previous blog entry. It basically act as an instrument for me to unleash all the wrecked up emotions flowing through my blood vessels and into my head for the past one week or so. I hope no one reads this entry because i do not wish for any one to be exposed to my hideous writting.

I'm sure everyone has their fair chances of meeting people who has such infuriating character that even Mother Theresa or Gandhi himself would be annoyed if there's ever a chance of them interacting with them. Okay, i know that's not possible but its the best analogy i could think of now. I pride myself to have rather established control over my emotions nowadays, especially if i were to compare with my character in the past. But this person just infuriates me so much... Half the time i have to control myself so as not to scream at that person or tell that person to shut up but of course i can't because it is not the right thing to do. I've to look at the bigger picture and swallow all these emotions and total rage and that is not the easiest thing for me to do right now. I need an outlet, i need a release! God, i need to be away from that person but i can't because apparently, it is these 'experiences' that makes me a better person. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger right? In this case, if this goes on the way it is or gets worse, someone is going to get hurt, be it me or some unfortunate soul that crosses my path.

I'm still quite sane... just had to vent some frustration out before doing my work again.